i need a break badly.

Myself. My future.

I realised I have super bad mood swings. This moment, I can be super duper emotional and the next I can be okie. I think things firstly the negative way, the very very negative way. But after slowly straigtening out my thoughts, my thinking will slowly gets better, and of course, my mood will get better.

I detest pressure, I hate stress. I'm not good at handling both of this.

I need to have a sense of security, to ensure me everything is going smoothly. However, life is always unpredictable. Obstacles which happen in my life now and then are sometimes hard for me to handle.

Changes are always happening. Till now, growing up seems so hard for me. How? But still, I need to learn, to grow up and face all this myself. I gotta stop myself from wasting my life, my time, my money away.

I need to have a whole new thinking for my LIFE, my GOAL, my FUTURE.

Good luck to myself.

GAMER


from website;
GAMER is an action thriller set in a near future when gaming and entertainment have evolved into a terrifying new hybrid. Humans control other humans in mass-scale, multi-player online games: people play people...for keeps. "Slayers," a first-person shooter game allows millions to act out their most savage fantasies online in front of a global audience, using real prisoners as avatars with whom they fight to the death. Kable (300's Gerard Butler) is the superstar and cult hero of "Slayers." Kable is controlled by Simon who continues to defy all odds by guiding Kable to victory each week. Taken from his family, imprisoned and forced to fight against his will, the modern day gladiator must survive long enough to escape the game to free his family, regain his identity and to save mankind from Castle's ruthless technology.

PHOBIA2


from website;
The screaming experience from 2008 is about to return again with a portmanteau horror film by the most talented film directors - Banjong Pisanthanakun (Shutter, Alone, 4BIA - In the Middle), Paween Purijitpanya (Body, 4BIA- Tit for Tat), Songyos Sugmakanan (Dorm, Hormones), Parkpoom Wongpoom (Shutter, Alone, 4BIA - Last Fright), and a new director Visute Poolvoralaks the man behind the success of Shutter, Alone, 4BIA and Coming Soon.

Don't be surprised if you are addicted to fear.


THE UGLE TRUTH


from website;
Abby Richter (Katherine Heigl) is a romantically challenged morning show producer whose search for Mr. Perfect has left her hopelessly single. She's in for a rude awakening when her bosses team her with Mike Chadway (Gerard Butler), a hardcore shock jock who promises to spill the ugly truth on what makes men and women tick.


ACCIDENT


from website;
A self-styled accident choreographer, the Brain is a professional hitman who kills his victims by trapping them in well crafted accidents that look like unfortunate mishaps but are in fact perfectly staged acts of crime. Perennially plagued with guilt, he is also suspicious and morbid by nature. The recent avalanche of memories of his lost wife does not make things any easier.

After one mission accidentally goes wrong, causing the life of one of his men, the Brain is convinced that this accident has been choreographed: someone is out there plotting to terminate him and his team. He becomes increasingly paranoid, walking on the thin line between reality and delusion.

When he discovers that a mysterious insurance agent Fong is somewhat related one of the accidents he has staged, the Brain becomes obsessed that this man must be the mastermind behind a conspiracy to take him out. To regain his sanity and to save his life, he must strive to kill Fong before he makes his next move.


movies i caught over the past weeks :)

what i want actually?
what do i need?
what am i thinking?
what is my goal?
what is my future?
what is my life?

ps. i really need a guardian angel to guide me.

he did so so much for me.
he sacrificed so so much for me.
thanks for everything MrChua, i appreciate it alot alot.

RANDOM

- Met up with yuru after work. Its been ages since i saw her.

- dearie and me got new phone. Nokia E52&E71 :)

- we both are so into using msn with the phone. Haha.

- dearie is still so stress at work :(

- will be back agn.

i'm loving my new phone:D

feeling happy and moody at the same time.sighs.

met up with gfs ytd at juro point. ah wei didnt join us but then still bump into her at juro point. haha. we are just so fated lar.

had din tai fung for dinner. yummy!!! 小笼包 is the best there :D

bought a top at NET. cheap cheap. and a three-quarters for dearie at Giodano. actually ytd really have the urge to spend money on bags and shoes, but too bad. i cant find anything to my liking. well, in a good way, i can save money.

anyway a gift :D thanks! anna sui lip gloss smell so nice~

so sad. dearie is working hard at home now. he brought his work back home :(

the worst thing is i cant help him in any way. to lighten his burden and everything.

hope everything will be normal soon.......

RANDOM

i bought this book the other day :D


- boring monday. i'm having monday blues now.

- rashes are not okie yet. shit! hate it. how i wish it is chicken pox. haha.

- i think dearie is working too hard, he seem so tired always :( all because of that stupid lao ang moh.

- i need my beauty sleep, so does he.

- dearie is craving for dim sum. hmmmm.

- i'm missing lappy, chou chou and piyo piyo alrdy.

- i wish everything will goes smoothly. always and always. *cross fingers*



ps. i miss you too

from website;
Many people believe when a person dies, his soul returns on the 7th night. Shun's spirit returns to possess his 13 year old sister Qing to exact revenge on those who brutally murdered him and his beloved wife. This is a thriller set in a supernatural context, with characters caught in a web of love, betrayal, and revenge. This tale of vengeance starts with Qing, already possessed, trying to enlist the help of his ex-colleague to seek his revenge. The whole story unfolds in the course of one night, as we see how a little girl possessed by a man, hunts down his killers one by one.

movie with dearie last night~ blood ties. quite a confusing show too me. hmmmm.

having a sudden headache just now. damm pain. felt so much better after pop-ing down 2 panadol and dearie giving me the special massage :D

sians, monday tmr again!!!! monday blues~

gonna be busy today. so many things to do~ will be back at home only ard 4plus cause meeting dearie for lunch.

- magic clean/mop the floor

- clean all the tables

- change bedsheets

- wash the fan

- wash my blanket >> this is tough

- clear my wardrobe

- wash the kitchen

and luckily i bathe my darlings ytd alrdy :)

hopefully i nv miss out anything.

aiyo~ so noisy now!!!

and i thought everything is changing for the better. but no i was wrong :(

- my voice still sound so man. haha.

- its bored playing photo hunt alone without him.

- its bored eating calbee potato chips alone. it does not taste tat nice too.

- i'm having rashes. seriously i dunno what am i allegic too.

- cookie darling is having rashes too :( really need to bring him to the vet.

- boyfriend went fishing last night, he's off today.

- change at his workplace. praying hard everything goes well and smoothly.

- bored at work. too many weird pple.

- shld i get another longchamp bag next mth? shld i shld i shld i???? hmmmm.

- i think i shld save more rather than spend more.

- baby cousin~ 9 months old already. so cute and chubby now.

did i mention, my piyo piyo, which my gfs got for me, is super HUGE. ok, not very HUGE lar, just huge. haha! it bigger than my face. i now use it as a cushion whenever i use lappy, be it in the room or the living room. loves~~~~

my sound totally sucks now. yet i still gotta talk talk talk.

i'm bored at work now -.-"

ps: i miss you